"Black Sabbath"

Out of all the things I fear
Most of them is what I hold dear
In my heart I search to find
Meaning to continue on and not leave behind
My mind confuses me into believing it's real
But reality is that I'm insane, attempting
Again and again, what I know isn't fate
So many great ideas from talent I have
Brushed aside, I'm feeling of and that it's too late
"Can you Help Me?!"
I scream at the sky
The sun comes out, blinds me
But still, no reply
I bring my open arms down to my sides
And think to myself, why did I leave
You behind?
You were that smile, that feeling of joy
And not I cry and feel that to everyone
I just annoy
Can't even say toy, this toy has been
Broken many times
Tried to fit it, but all the cracks remain
And we know that's far from fine
"Can you Help Me?!"
Doing me a favor, sharing your time
Is only worse, I hurt more for knowing
You are lacking and I am just a crime
The sun shines
I try to hide from it
I wish I could sit on a blanket, in The Commons
And write for days... But days become night
And nights bring Freight, the type I'm too
Weak to tolerate
(2-24-14)