"What it takes to come alive.."

We definitely fell in love, in

one of the most hopeless places ever

Bringing you your only appetite, 

sitting next to you as you nodded out onto my shoulder, drooling 

on my blouse

Spinning, my head never stopped

I awoke and was where I was not

The others had scattered and there I was

In last nights clothing

I couldn't keep up, I didn't want to

Not my forte, no, please, I don't want to

I puked

crackers were given to me

I became sick

Sick for you, more and more

allowing the disease to spread rampidly throughout my whole being

So close, so far

Our skin cold, our bodies alive

If you even call the lifestyle anything other than prisoned to death.

Reoccurring trends of bathroom visits to purge the little left inside me

Only to walk back into a room where it all had to be done again.

I slept, or

so I thought.

I was lost

Lost in a trance where I'd never wanted to be.

Slowly, I lost control and awoke with a sudden crash in life

No one could help me, there was nothing they could do

Only I.

And I did.

Resuscitated, now I awake to Life.