Wednesday, July 4th, 2012
Self medicated
Self annihilated
Self projected
Self inside self searching for the "what next?" button.
The undo button to change the past
That doesn't allow my present to pass
Hurting inside and on the out
Bruising everywhere
"You have no discipline", I remind myself
Knowing that disastrous moments where my fists threw into walls and people
Disgusted with myself.
With all my lacks and all that I know I have,
And am not using it.
Time for change.
Time to progress, regress on the bullshit and continue forward.
I can do this, we all can,
If only we let go
And held onto ourselves.
We can do this, we can and will get through this.
"If it ain't broke, don't fix it', right?
Well, I admit, I have been broken, tossed and turned all nights, shivering within myself, hurting from all my past.
But that just reminds me, I'm broken, in many ways, hence the time to start fixing.
Making lists, setting goals, more importantly- sticking to them.
I am not what you tear me down to.
I am far ahead that I become lost with the present time.
Who is to blame? Who cares? Just continue on and shine as bright as you were meant to.
Today is a new day and so will tomorrow be.
"Today Better than yesterday and tomorrow better than today"
I promise myself to not allow others to bring me down.
I will be strong and will continue on.
I like the positiveness running through this post. You are strong, one of the strongest people I know. You have gone through so much in your still-young life, much more than I've been through in twice that time. You will not only get through this, you will triumph. Find your strength in your family, your friends, your God...but mostly in yourself. It's there in spades.
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