“I don’t want to wait in Vain... ”

To sway carelessly in the dark room
Lit only by the rainy weathers dim lighting
Through a small kitchen window
Closing my eyes
Not wanting to cry
But tears have already formed and once my lids close,
The small petals of love fall from my face
There is no breakdown, there is no failing Strength resides in me
 My mind continues on,
Pushing my whole being to continue and strive for endless possibilities
I sway alone
Sweatpants and glasses on, my hair a mess
I feel comfort in hearing the peace in Bob’s voice
 Easing my heart to a calmer state where instead of screaming
I become silent
And listen deep
Blocking out the world, I am alone in the kitchen,
Dancing with myself.
Not expecting anything, but hoping for the best
And knowing God will continue to Bless..
My throat hurts again
Repression is releasing through the tapping of my flanges on the keyboard
Sometimes words are lost and all that is gained are sounds,
 Sounds, sounds, sounds… Hums and hymns, beats, drums, strings
No longer in Vain, I love you.